Life Is Good

I turned 28 this past Saturday, and for some reason the lead up to this birthday actually caused me a bit of mental stress. And it isn’t the age, really. I’ve never been one to worry about aging. Growing older is a part of life. And also, please don’t begin to think that I feel ‘old’ now that I’m freaking 28. Ha, no way!

No, the mental stress came more in thinking about the fact that I am now right on the edge of my thirties and I was suddenly stuck thinking Is my life where I want it to be at this age? for hours on end while I tried to sleep at night.

Luckily, the logical organized part of my brain kicked in and gave my anxiety brain the boot, and I started writing in my journal as I tend to do when any sort of emotional turmoil kicks in, no matter how small or trivial. And after much writing, rambling, and self-analyzing, I realized, yeah, I AM pretty damn happy with where my life is. Life is good.

I have so many amazing things in my life now that I am completely thankful for. But beyond that, I have plans for where I want my life to be. And I find that so exciting! I love knowing that I am actively working on growing my life in different ways. I’m so happy with things now, but I’m just as happy knowing that this is not it. That there is so much more I have to do, and I’m working on making it happen. Obviously, things are not rainbows and sunshine all the time, but on the whole, life is just good. So while I may cringe when I see how young the college kids looks as I drive past the campus to go grocery shopping, I can happily say year 28 is looking pretty grand.

How did you feel about your last birthday?

  • First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

    I was super excited for my 25, because I celebrated my birthday at Platform 9 3/4, but once home I kept thinking about the fact that I wanted to do something special for this important number, like keeping a special journal, a scrapbook, maybe 25 projects before 26, I had no idea. Months passed and I’m still here with no special projects, I’ll be 26 in October and this makes me feel anxious, because I’m not a teenager anymore and I am still studying. However I’m lucky to live the life I’m living, so I really don’t want to freak out 🙂

    • Kay

      Thanks Alice!

      I fee like age is one of those things that in reality is pretty meaningless. I think so many people (myself included) worry about it because of the ideas we have in our head of what we SHOULD be doing at such and such age and if we aren’t doing that we feel as if we’re doing something ‘wrong’. But really, this is the only life we get so make it what you want! I think it’s fantastic that you are still studying and learning with intention at your age. Expanding your knowledge is definitely something to be proud of! 🙂

      Also, so amazing that you celebrated at Platform 9 3/4!!

  • gamerwife

    Happy Birthday! And yeah, for some reason 28 was a really hard age for me too. Twenty-nine was fine. Thirty was fine. But 28? Total crisis. Have you heard of the Return of Saturn? I’m not really that into astrological woowoo, but this particular theory made a lot of sense to me at 28.

    • Kay

      Thank you! And I haven’t hear of the Return of Saturn, but I will definitely look it up.

  • Happy late birthday!!! I totally get that stress over wondering if you’re where you wanted to be at 28. I did the same thing on my birthday a couple of months ago. I’m glad you were able to map out everything great in your life, and your plans for the future. Sounds like this will be a great year for you!

    • Kay

      Thank you! And if the first four months are any indication, I agree, 2016 should be a good one. 🙂

  • Happy birthday again! I totally understand that feeling…I’m sure it’ll only get worse as I get older, hahah! Sometimes when I compare my life to others I get bummed, like “so-and-so is my age and has her own house and just bought a brand new car, why aren’t I making that type of money? Did I just waste my time in college?!” But at the end of the day I’m happy and not starving, so that’s what matters hahah.

    • Kay

      So true! I often feel the same. We are so not even close to being able to afford a house and I’ve never really traveled anywhere and it all turns into IS THIS WHERE I’M SUPPOSED TO BE?! But in the end, yeah, I think it is! We’re happy, and that’s what counts. 😀

  • Danielle Knapp

    Happy birthday again 🙂 I’ve had the pre birthday anxiety before, so I totally get it. Glad you journaled it out and realized life is good 🙂

    • Kay

      Thanks Danielle! Journaling is so therapeutic for me.

  • Happy birthday!! Getting older is definitely scary (my 27th birthday is in June!), but I see getting older a good sign! We get wiser and smarter and more awesome!
    ~Sara
    Sincerely, Sara

    • Kay

      Thank you! And very true. So far my twenties have been pretty great, so I’m excited to see what the further years bring!

  • Happy Birthday again, and yay for life being good 🙂 It’s so easy to get anxious about life, and where you want to be and where you are heading, but I’m so happy the more reasonable and reflective part of your brain was able to kick in, and remind you that your life is actually pretty awesome.

    • Kay

      Thanks Rosa! Journaling really helps my anxiety…it definitely helps that logical part of my brain take over and reign things in as I sort thoughts out on the paper.

  • Well happy birthday again! I have to say 30 was a tough year. I was transitioning from being in the military full time to in the Air National Guard and I was coming to terms with the close of my 20’s it was really a tough time. 31 one was also another tough year. Lot’s of changes and crazy happening. So far 32 has been awesome and I’m hoping that 33 is equally so!

    • Kay

      I’m glad! I can imagine that must be quite a change from full time to National Guard. Definitely a lot of adjustments. Glad to hear 32 is a good one for you! 🙂

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  • christine

    “I’m just as happy knowing that this is not it.” – I LOVEEEE that and need to make that a mantra in my life. You can love where you are and accept that you are on a path of growth! I so often get caught up in the destination without enjoying where I’m at and the journey (cliche). Good for you though. And happy birthday!

    • Kay

      Thank you so much! I feel like a lot of worry about aging comes from feeling like your best days are behind you. I never want to feel like that. I AM satisfied with my life as it currently stands, but I am equally excited about all I have left to do and learn and see. It is a bit cliche, but it’s true! I never want to feel like I’ve piqued…I always want to keep growing in some manner or another!

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